I don’t want it just tonight, I want it forever.
These past 2 weeks have been really hard for me. My grandad was seriously ill and was admitted to Hospital on Mothers Day, he was then admitted to a hospice as he was so ill. I saw him when he was in the hospice and saw him deteriorate each day.
Sadly he passed away on Monday evening, its such a horrible feeling knowing that he’s gone and he won’t be coming back, as I was so close to him growing up all these years. I feel so numb, i’ve never had to deal with death in my family and its seriously hard. Yesterday I went up to my Grandmas in Hailsham with my family to sort things out. It made me realise how strong my family are, and how they pull together when there are tough times.
I’m sure i’ll be able to cope with it, its just hard getting in to reality and coming to terms with it. I’ve had support though from my friends, family and my boyfriend which has been really helpful. Its just so strange how one minute its life, and the next its death.
R.I.P Grandad, will miss you x x x
I’m at that stage in my life now where every moment counts. Take each day as it comes. My grandad is currently really ill in hospital and doesn’t have a high chance of survival. I’ve realised friends & family are what you need in life to make you cope. I’ve seen my family pull together and make sure that everyone is okay because of him being seriously ill. Its been tough, but I know i’ve got friends who would help me out if I really needed the help. Recently, I’ve made up with a good friend who I had a big falling out with, realising that my grandad being seriously ill, theres no point in holding grudges with anyone when you just don’t know what could happen, no point at all. What i’ve realised its life is too short, and not to take anything for granted.